Just a taste

So, I have this thing called Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I'm not going to go into the details of what that means right now, but here's a taste of how my brain works...

After publishing that first post I felt really good about it for a few hours until the anxiety thoughts began and I was itching to call the whole thing off. These thoughts ranged from "I bet I made a gross grammatical error" to "I have put my family in danger by displaying my real name on yet another website" and everything in between. I'm second guessing my writing ability as well as my likability, but you know what? Fuck it. These are the kinds of thoughts that I'm trying to overcome. It's the negative self-talk, the constant over-analyzing  that is holding me back. This blog is the exact place that I need to vent my anxiety instead of internalizing it. Blogs are free, therapy isn't!

P.S. If you are a creepy weirdo who wants to track me down and murder me in my sleep, just know that I have a security system that covers my entire house and IT IS ALWAYS SET.

P.P.S. Fun fact: my husband had it installed as a "Zombie Alert System" in case of the Zombie Apocalypse, but I can assure you that it detects the living as well.