My neighbor wants me to help him vomit

Moments ago I was unloading the dishwasher when I heard a timid knock at my door. When I saw that it was my strange neighbor I was tempted to pretend I wasn't at home, but he knows my habits too well. He asked if Clint was available because he needs medical advice. My husband works at the hospital, but he isn't a doctor, and since he is sleeping between shifts I refused to wake him. This neighbor then tells me that he thought he was eating his customary meal of raw beef, but to his great dismay he realized too late that it was actually raw pork. To his knowledge raw pork is much more dangerous to ingest than raw beef and he is desperate for advice on how to induce vomiting. He was shocked that he couldn't find ipecac syrup available anywhere and I informed him that it is rarely used now because it has potentially dangerous side effects. He has been unable to induce vomiting on his own and he told me that if he doesn't find a solution to his situation that he will be back at my door in a couple of hours when Clint wakes up. I told him to call a nurse and ask for advice, but he is phobic of nurses and doctors... This man mends his own broken bones in his garage. I really don't want to find him on my doorstep again at 4:00. You guys, this is some seriously weird shit.

The day my parents tried to kill me with embarrassment

April 16th will mark 5 years of happy togetherness with the love of my life, Clint. The beginning of our love story, however, is as ridiculous as they come and I still blush from embarrassment when I think back on our first lunch date, especially because my parents love to remind me of the fiasco.

To properly set the stage for you I first have to tell you how it is that Clint and I came to know each other. When we were 15 years old Clint and I began talking over the phone after his best friend urged him to call me on his behalf, trying to convince me to leave my boyfriend to be with him instead. The noble and very social Clint did this favor for his painfully shy buddy, but it turned out that Clint and I hit it off as fast friends and his ill-fated buddy was soon forgotten. Some time later the phone calls stopped and we lost touch as our lives went in separate directions. It wasn't until 6 years later that, either by happy accident or cosmic design, our paths crossed once again when he unknowingly stumbled upon me on MySpace, struck up a conversation  with me and I recognized him by name and friendly association. A week later we had plans to meet in person for the first time, on a completely nonthreatening lunch date at a local bar & grill. This is where my insane parents come into play.

When I offhandedly relayed the details of my plans for the day to my parents (keep in mind I was 21 years old at this point) they somehow got the idea that I was planning to meet up with some completely random dude from the internet on a dangerous flight of fancy. Maybe it was all of the alarmist Lifetime movies they'd watched about internet predators that set them off, all I know is that when I turned off the ringer on my cell phone that day like any polite dining companion, I set off a chain of idiotic events. Meanwhile, Clint and I enjoyed a nice meal and lovely conversation; we had a great time and found that we had a lot in common. Further plans for the afternoon were made and it was all very laid back and adult. As we walked back out to the car to head to the movie theater together, I checked my phone and realized that I had multiple missed calls from both of my parents and several panicked voicemails from my mother who was near tears and ready to call the police to report me as "kidnapped by a psychorapistkiller" if I didn't call her back in the next 5 minutes. I'd never been so mortified in my life. I called my nutty mom and tried to put out the fire that was raging in her brain as Clint laughed hysterically at my shocked and ever-paling face. All the while, my dad had located my car and was stalking us, watching us like a hawk from the innocuous green Subaru Outback. I'm telling you, I was embarrassed to the point of near-nausea. I was instantly made to feel like a reckless 13 year old about to be dragged home, kicking and screaming, by my over-protective parents. I was so sure that I would never see Clint again and I would become nothing more than a funny story he would tell his buddies at the bar. The fact that he stuck around to see what would happen next still amazes me to this day. 4 months later we were married. He still thinks my parents are crazy though. They are, anyway.

Every year my dad loves to threaten to follow us on our date while we celebrate our anniversary, and every year I give him hell for it. The embarrassment manages to stretch through time.

A beautiful life

In my last post I talked of goals made and projects started that never took off from the ground. I'm happy to report that in the sunlight of spring I have once again found energized motivation. Writing is still on the back burner for now, but I've been exercising every day and I've finally started scrapbooking again. I've filled multiple photo albums too; it feels good to know that those memories are just a page turn away. Speaking of page-turning, I've rediscovered my love for Stephen King after more than a decade of neglect. His books light a fire under me and remind me that it's okay to embrace my dark creativity. I'm feeling inspired.

My days are now filled with gardening in the sun, accompanied by the musical soundtrack of wind chimes, my favorite songs and my son at play. The vegetable garden that I've been planning for years is actually happening now and I'm excitedly awaiting the first signs of life. Strawberries, flowers and climbing ivy on a pretty new lattice are all happy works in progress as well. I'm reminded every day how lucky I am that I've been able to manifest the beautiful life that I always dreamed of.

I've carefully been distancing myself from people who I react to with negative emotion and I've stopped paying such close attention to toxic news media. It's amazing how quickly the fog lifts.

Secret worlds

It always starts with a goal, of course it does. I want to be a writer, so I start journaling. I want to scrapbook every milestone that my son meets, so I take thousands of photos. I want to get in better shape, so I buy an exercise machine. I start a lot of projects with every intention to do something great, but everything is stunted by my inability to stay motivated. So, years worth of journals are lost now, I have hundreds of printed photos sitting in a box, and my Gold's Gym elliptical doubles as a towel rack. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I almost deleted this blog because after letting it sit dormant for a month I lost interest and I started to question if I wanted my name to be attached to this collection of mundane thoughts.

I don't let a lot of interesting things happen to me anymore; I like that my life is boring and mostly uncomplicated. There is comfort in my routine and I like that my days are predictable. So many things make me anxious, everything from strangely placed ellipses in a text conversation to someone else's tragedy in the news, and absolutely everything in between. So, a boring, uncomplicated, routine home life may not make for  a very interesting read, but what I really want to do is to find a way to share some of my secret worlds. I want to find and access the tools I need to become a novelist. Until then, I guess I'll keep sending out these surface thoughts while I gather the strength to let my greater, deeper self shine up and through.

"Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people in the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they've got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe." -- Neil Gaiman

Burn them!

Have you ever had to clean up a mess so vile that afterwards you wished you could burn all of your towels and start over? Well, that is the scenario that Clint and I were faced with the other day. I'll spare you the details and leave them to your imagination. The problem is, we can't afford to replace all of our towels just now, so I washed the same load of laundry 3 times in hot water on the longest cycle setting. I'm still wary of these towels and it makes we anxious to use them to dry off after my showers. It's safe to say that we are deeply traumatized. I'm going to need to buy more bleach.

After that, we needed to take a family mental health day, so we took our son to the mall to run around and explore. There is a cool little aquarium shop in there and he loved seeing all of the sharks and beautiful tropical fish. I was enjoying it too, but I kept overhearing snippets of borderline disturbing conversations about fish that had me questioning the sanity of these nerdy fish fanatics. One woman was talking to the snails as she tried to coax them onto a different rock. Another man was explaining to a boy that if you let a stingray nibble on your finger it feels a bit like a teething baby gumming you, except the gums are coarse, unlike a baby's. The boy then asked the man if he had ever been bitten by a bearded dragon and wondered if he could compare the feelings of these two finger nibblers. The man, regrettably, had not had this experience to compare it to. I also learned that they got in trouble with PETA for feeding live fish to the sharks, so they only do it after hours now. Weirdos, I tell you.

I freaking love the internet

I've been putting off the daunting task of sorting through and selecting the photos I want to print out of the thousands I've taken the past 2 years. After I broke the photo printer I needed a new way to get prints to send out to grandparents and great-grandparents. The plan was to put them onto an SD card and take them to Walmart, which I've been dreading for financial and anxiety reasons. Well, the other day I happened upon a friend's facebook post about a website that was having an insanely good deal on photo prints for 2 days only. This got my ass into gear and I spent the next 3 hours going through all of my photos and ended up selecting 377 to be printed, 151 of which I got for free! I freaking love the internet. Thank you, shutterfly.com! I should be getting the prints in the mail soon and I'm so excited to finally get back scrapbooking and such. However, since I only ordered single prints I still have to decide which ones to make copies of at Walmart to send out to everyone, but now it will be a much easier and cheaper process. I'm actually glad that I broke that printer now, I saved us a lot of money in the long run.

Another thing that I'm loving about the internet right now is the new 6-second video sharing app called Vine. Technically I can't use the app yet because it's iOS only for now (beyond annoying when that happens), but it's been fun seeing my friends' vines. There is a website called vinepeek.com that streams vines in real time and I'm obsessed with it! People lead such interesting and beautiful lives. There are a lot of absolute wackadoodles on there too though... and cats.

I know this post reads like one giant multi-company advertisement, but I swear they aren't paying me. I just wanted to spread some happy customer love.

Well, crap!

The other day we acquired a VCR to play old movies for our son and a relatively old photo printer. Our little guy has been asking to watch Bambi, but it's not on Netflix and we only have the VHS version. Clint set up our "new" VCR and was about to put Bambi in, but I remember all too well the dreaded sounds of shredding tape, so I said, "wait, we should test it with a movie we don't care about." I did a quick search for such a movie and selected Oliver and Company, despite the fact that I actually do quite like it, I just know it doesn't tend to be a favorite for most. We slid the tape in, pushed play, and immediately heard the sounds of doom from within the cursed machine. My movie is ruined! I should have run out to the garage to grab one of the crappy old non-Disney cartoons, but I was in a hurry and I thought for sure it would be fine.

Then came the testing of the photo printer. Our grandparents have been asking for some printed photos for the past few months and we've been seriously slacking on what should be a laughably easy project. Problem is, I haven't printed any photos since Christmas of 2010, so it's really no small project at all. In the past I've enjoyed scrapbooking and I have a few nice picture frames that I would like to put to good use, but for whatever reason I just can't be bothered to make my way to the Walmart photo kiosk. So, this little at-home photo printer that MIL gave us seemed like a good idea. Clint tested the thing to make sure it was functional before we brought it home and then he set off the buy the ink and paper for it. While at the store he called me to ask what the ink cartridge said and tried to walk me through the "really easy" removal process of the cartridge from the tiny printer, but I was getting frustrated and started aggressively pushing and pulling the darn thing trying to wrench it out until finally I realized I had the whole thing turned on it's side instead of upright like I thought. It turns out I totally scrambled its brain, but I didn't know it until after Clint had forked over a wad of cash for the ink and paper. I feel really stupid, Clint just laughed and laughed. Hopefully we can return the unopened items so I don't feel extra terrible. I guess we'll be making that trip to the photo kiosk afterall. And hey, we'll save money in the long run and the photos will be better quality, so I did us a favor, right? He'll be returning the ink and paper and buying a Bambi DVD, assuming he can find one. They better not be locked in that dumb vault.